One Hundred-Nine

DAY 3: good bye mom and papi. they left me to D.R. today early in the morning! yeah.. this photo was shot like at 6 in the am. i think i was too tired to even check. I could be lying maybe a little later than that b/c now that i remember i DID look at my phone and I saw a message from him saying "good morning." So it was like around 9! lol I'm such an exaggerator! any who today was an eventful day.. the only texts today were the ones just mentioned above! so yeh.. BUT i have good news... I have a good feeling about this today.. but before I get onto the drama.. I must inform you on what I did today. I made engagements to meet up with an old friend of mine (and her nieces) to have a pool day. It was fun.. I ate some of her cultural food i guess. lol... fish arabian rice tomati and beets! (MIND YOU SHE'S BRAZILIAN) lol! but all i could say is that it's very different than to how my mom cooks it. Then I went to Jordi's game which he lost! the moment i got there he was batting and he made a HOMERUN! but still those kids are good. PLUS MONCHI almost made a homerun for them!! he got loose and he started running all over the field. EVERYONE had to chase him. According to my brother, he said that the empire was super PIST! but whatever.. is not like if i did it on purpose. SORRRY!!! dammit! Then i worked out.. and I went out with Lisette because she was super mad because I did not tell her that I was single. So we went to go see 'My Sister's Keeper' wow....!!! let me tell you that that movie does not play! when they said DRAMA .. they really meant it! Cameron Diaz plays a perfect role and so does that little girl that also plays in 'Definitely Maybe' and the father need i say he's HOTTTT! and the other sister KATE! wow... her role was to the T!! she was fantastic! Anyway GREAT movie!! a lot of tears shed. And after we spoke about the infamous BREAK i am currently in.. and that's when everything hit me.. the reason for this break and the outcome of it.... I must say i got help from some movie preview... I think it is called.. 'The Wife of the Time Traveler' I must see it when it comes out. But yeah.. I know that he loves me.. and I know most certainty why he needs this time alone. Yes everyone can tell me what they think.. if they were in his or my shoes.. but no one knows what's going on. I can try and put 38702937 million negative things in my head on why he put this 'break' on us... but i know that thats bologna (like the commercial) I know that he's going through rough times... and most importantly his mind level is not where mine is @ the moment. He is still thinking about friends etc. and stuff while I'm thinking more about us and more futuristic levels. And he knows that physically it could be impossible for him to jump on the level with me.. b/c where he is standing @ the moment. And that's why he needs time to gather thoughts and try to grow to where I am at. But what he doesn't know is that I know this nor that by just communication of his actual problems, we can foresee this. Hence the fact he is 19 and I am 21.

So yeah he needs to grow a little.. just a little in order for him to realize that this is just a bump.. and by talking we can get through it. And also I am not helping with just stating my problems only when I am about to pop! that is also unreasonable from me but HEY thats the reason why we must grow together. Yet he knows that I wanna have fun and that while he's doing this maturing, I really don't have to be there with him getting all the nasty side effects this growing contraindicates. So yeh.. I know I made up all this conclusion in my head. But yeah this is not a movie.. this is elliott and susan.. the peeps who met each other a loong time ago and with the simple help of a shooting star, all of this happened. So I just needs to do exactly what he told me to do. Which is 'everything I want' in order to wait it out while he is maturing. Simplicity! See Wall-E also had to change a little in order for Eve and him to be together. He was so stuck on the old.. he couldn't digest all the new stuff that Eve can do. =D Another reason why Wall-E is soo perfect for us. (I'm wearing the shirt) ok tell me this isn't freaking HE JUST TEXTED ME!!! and as soon as I was going to write... my phone froze and RESET.. AHHHHH should I take it as a sign?

One Hundred-Eight

DAY 2:

went to school thought my patient was going to suck!! but it turned out she will be my new FINAL! sooo im taking my final now on MONDAY! (wish me Luck) she has really perfect teeth.. she said that she brushed like 239847986 a day! Today the texting was 'normal' BUT later on.. we got into another bug storm! maybe this isn't suppose to work. maybe we are just suppose to be friends forever. I mean that's the only way I can talk to him and he can be good with me! Besides the fact.. today I met this brilliant girl that goes by the name of Karol (i think thats how you spell it) well yeah we were both using the computers @ the library and then some guy decided to talk to her about her tattoos and then since i have ADD i decided to look over there. We started talking.. she's studying to be a nurse but has passion for art... she's a gemini.. she keeps a book of doodles that i must say that they are not doodles. She found the perfect gemini symbol. We both agreed that gemini symbols are the ugliest ones in the zodiac. i mean anyone can draw a II who can't.. so she found this amazing drawing of two angels one playing a harp and the other one i forgot the other instrument. I SWEAR if i see her again im going to ask her if i can take a pic of it. She also keeps fortune cookie messages. And then since I've never bonded with another gemini we started talking about each other to see if we are alike. We both would love to do everything in this world. And then I realized that it's not the fact that we want to do it.. but the actual idea is the one that causes the excitement. Like right now with this whole break.. yeah sometimes im in a downer.. but at times I'm like ok this is new. which takes me to another subject.. we love change. We connected very much. I stopped doing my NSPT report and everything it was really neat. And since she's in nursing she incorporated a lot of the anatomy structures in her drawings. It was really cool. So i learned something yesterday.. 42.7 percent of statistics are made up on the spot! lol! i thought that was hilarious! and another little thing to keep you wonder...

BUT THIS IS DEEP SO PAY ATTENTION: What if the people who 'see' things.. like hallucinations.. what if they are not the crazy ones.. what if we're just blocked from seeing it and really they have the gift to just oversee that. Why is it that everything that we cannot see is 'taboo' yet we believe in a God who is invisible to most of us? What if we are the smallest things in this planet? What if we are all just experiments from another Galaxy? lol I know I just threw a lot of things there to absorb but yeah we went really deep. And this is exactly what I miss from my babycakes. the fact that i cannot express my mind to him anymore... =/ By the way.. what does the photo make you think about? To me it expresses that we are going into fire.. or that we are trying to see if there it's possible to leave the dull life behind and go into something different.

One Hundred-Seven

DAY 1:

so I woke up early (no good morning text) went out with Cindy and her man and a friend to go Jet Skiing. While I was getting ready I heard my mom talking to Cindy saying how back in the days even if there was no money her and her friends use to go to the beach and drink some wine and have fun. I guess she was defending me! Yeah, that was a FIRST! But no, I'm not going to lie, lately she's been on my side for almost everything. She still trips for no reason but yeah she has my back! I went to BK and no lie, I saw like 3 corvettes and not the shiny brand new ones, BUT the old old ones. And what did I want to do? But of course take a pic and email it to someone! But i bit my tongue and NOPE I did not! Because we are on a break. The best part of today was when the Jet Ski was going 60 MPH and the wind was so loud I couldn't hear myself think. All I had was the waves and wind blasting in my ear and the occasional splashed of salt water in my face. Having nothing to think about is a HARD task to accomplish. Your mind is always running on thoughts. But I have to admit today wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I had a pretty good time. BUTTTT! then ... like always you get home, and your family is here and once again the 21 questions from your uncle... "donde esta ellio?" "por que yo no lo veo por aqui?" AHHHHHH! why can't everyone just SHUT UP! OH and then I have ms. RIVERO texting me... why are you lonely? when yesterday she was telling me how she doesn't know why SHE bothered texting me. Now she's just doing it for the cheese. I HATE GIRLS! Okay I confess.. I just text him. I couldn't help myself! Wish me luck!

One Hundred-Six

GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE!

Ms. Yanira sent me a pic text message of the cover of this magazine

as I was reading it

freaky???

yehhh that's how our friendship is

we are always thinking the same thing

is like she's stuck in my head

any who i got all dressed up for someone today

and I got stood up

I think this was the last straw

but now as I am currently text talking

I see I can't let go

Yeah we've been at this for only 7 months

but we have a wayy tighter bond

for just 7 months.

did everything happen to quick?

I seriously never thought this day would come.

The day I ran out of words and just drew a blank

all i wanted was slurpies

all i wanted was hugs and kisses

did i ask for them in a way I was not suppose to?

is it the age difference?

I really don't know but now I'm here just wondering

what the HECK happen to us

what's the definition of a break?

what are the rules?

I've never had this before

my last relationship I must admit it was childish

but this one, we actually speak

and respect

so am I suppose to just break as time

or

ahhhh

words become useless when it comes to describing

the questions in my head.

yes they make perfect sense inside

but to translate them to human english

makes me babble and just nonsense comes out

I don't know how this last song ends....

to be continued.

One Hundred-Five

You know I hate when parents tell you the infamous phrase

"You don't want to be flipping burgers for the rest of your life kid."

Flipping burgers is a difficult task and not everyone

is built to fulfill it.

What if someone wants to flip burgers for the rest of their life

better yet... what if no one wants to flip burgers

EVER!

McDonald's wouldn't exist

Nor Burger King

nor Wendys

and so on.

SO you gotta give it up for those burger FLIPPERS

b/c if it wasn't for them..

some of us here in America wouldn't eat.

This takes me to another subject...

everyone is talking about the economy down scaling

and so forth...

And no one can find a job and blah blah blah..

but then you go to restaurants or shopping stores

and the customer service is horrendous.

I'm sorry.. last time I check 298374 people can fill your spot..

so why the heck are you acting like if you can't be replaced?

But then that leads me to favoritism and discrimination.

Miami is sooo FULL of BALONY !

I can't wait till I move out!

one Hundred-Four

guilty pleasures.

One Hundred-Three

So I thought I was going to complete my mother today.

But apparently everyone else had to see Ms. Moss today

I didn't trip b/c I seriously don't need the points.

I'm already over 4 points

I did do a lot of requirements today...

All 3 graceys

and all 3 sharpening instruments

so I did ACCOMPLISH something.

Now I need to finish the NSPT report

and the Self Assessment

and Bite wings

and I will finish!

sooo heading off to a good foot.

As for pharm..

AHHH I'm not going to remember anything friday

We haven't had class for the past 2 weeks

We have HW due

that i have not done yet!

Like always... everything to the LAST minute!

I went to the water park as planned yesterday

it was a really nice park.

except for the fact that we brought the bad weather with us.

=/

that didn't stop me from getting pictures.

everything resembled a painting from Britto

It was a nice experience

PLUS our receipts count as rain checks

for ONE whole year!

=DDD

P.S

I got INCUBUS ticket today

$29.99 lawn

no service FEE

and

dog+pop

=D

Amy and Vero once again

we're making a trio