Three Hundred and Sixty-Two

Happy 25th Anniversary 

Tio and Rebeca

A nice celebration to gather the family 

It was very nice

and they were very surprised

:)

now the question is...

will I have a 25th anniversary with someone?

Three Hundred and Fifty-Five

Some women choose to follow men,

and some choose to follow their dreams. 

If you're wondering which way to go,

remember that your  c a r e e r  will never wake up

and tell you that it doesn't love you anymore.

-Lady Gaga

Three Hundred and Forty-Two

P a i n t b a L L i n g 

as of right now I have 3 bruises to show

let's see how I wake up tomorrow.

But on a very good note...

There was a round that was 2 on 2

but quickly became a 2 on 1

and I was able to hit those two

B i a t c h e s !

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

I hit gissodizzle on the ear

and on the head

and 

boob-e was shot on her head as well.

I'm sorryyyy!

Then.....

we went to see Alice in Wonderland!

If you have not seen it yet,

I strongly urge you to go

and if you have and you're one of those who don't like it...

OFF WITH YOU'RE HEAD!

The movie had a lot of great messages 

I definitely would rather be  l o v e d  than  f e a r e d

  

being mad is a quality from the best people

always always always 

believe in the impossible 

whether it is 

a potion that can make you small

or

a cake that can make you grow

or

animals that talk

or 

cats disappearing

or

about a place called Wonderland

or

moving to Australia 

Oh!

and one more thing

learn how to futterwack

:)

Thought of the day:
Have you ever thought or wondered
why it sometimes feels sooo awkward to say those 3 simple words,
"I Love You?"
I've come to the conclusion that
that feeling occurs when its ultimately a genuine emotion.
It takes a lot for a person to spill their thoughts.
Whether they have their guard up or not,
it's a sense of pride to hide your feelings.
Next time you say those words think about it...
do you really mean it?
or is it just because you're hanging up the phone?
Think about the first time you ever said it to your significant other
your mother
your father
your brother
your cousin 

Think about the first time they ever said it to you.
Get my point?

I LOVE YOU TOO BOOB-E! ! ! 

Three Hundred and Twenty-One

Happy Valentine's Day

Like many other fun-filled days.. I have a lot of pictures to post!

and yesss all from the new camera ;)

Jorge invited Boob-e, Jenny, and I 

for brunch @ Key Largo.

Seriously, simplicity is the key to my heart.

A couple of Oysters 

Lobster bisque 

Chicken Fingers and fries

Coke 

The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds 

Strewn across a blue blanket. 

I lean against the wind

Pretend that I am weightless

And in this moment I am happy.

-Incubus

I want to wish you were here but the truth is

I love this me I've become after you.

I take my chances and because of that

I found a different shade of happiness.

The secret to one's happiness is finding it within yourself.

Relaying on someone to make you happy takes time.

Besides the time waiting, you also run the risk of loosing it

If a change of heart were ever to occur.

Find your happiness and help others conquer the same.

****

Later on @ night:

My valentine was gonna cancel our night plans

therefore she added another gift..

chocolates that sing country ;)

TODAY my Boob-E gave me:

-socks (valentine theme)

-chap stick ;)

-some seeds to grow 'Burning Love'

-Wisps :D

Can I ask for more?

I'm so glad I don't work at the movie theaters any more.

We were supposed to go see a movie...

BUT yeah right!

I felt  c l a u s t r  o p h o b i c  just waiting in line to buy a ticket.

Blockbuster was just the same but the line was more spacious.

And lets not forget to mention the 10 year old who completely cut us in line!

ARGH!

and of course I did a late night project with the new cam.

Being that its Valentine's day

I was inspired to be heartsy ;)

Happy Valentine's Day y'all ;)

Three Hundred and Nineteen

No he can't read my poker face.
She's got to love nobody.
-Lady Gaga

Two Hundred and Seventy-Seven

goodbye 2009

hello 2010

Started the year with a big b a n g !

literally,

Ever felt proud of something you shouldn't?

Finally the start of the year brought the end of the crazy story.

May 2010 bring lots of

joy

truth

health

wealth

success

and

lots and lots

of

l o v e .

I love my girls.

Two Hundred and Sixty-Nine

Merry Christmas Eve

My Vampire Santa Claus.

Speaking of vampires, I saw my vampire.

Except tonight he was not a vampire...

He introduced me to another character.

A pirate everyone is bound to love.

I don't know who I like better..

Do I need to decide?

I think I'll keep both

lol

Jamming out with a record player.

I entered into a 70's party and indeed I enjoyed it.

Brooms were used as guitars

and everyone was just rocking out.

Awesome time.

Two Hundred and Thirty-Four

My Walking Blender and I

Tomorrow I take my senior pictures.

You know, the ones that get posted up on my license once I pass the boards

and become a Register Dental Hygienist!

I can't believe it's here.

Time freaking flies sooooo FAST!

This upcoming Thursday guess what releases?

you betcha!

NEW MOON!

one FULL year it's been.

a lot of things change in 365 days

I guess this is the reason for this little project.

To see the change.

I urge everyone to do one.

whether you decide to make it public or not.

Trust me I've contemplated various times

on shutting it so only certain eyes can read.

But...

I haven't

and I don't think I will.

Many people have come to me and shared that they read my blog

(not daily but they check up on it)

Its nice to get feedback

Gosh this feels like I'm giving a farewell.

I still got 131 days left.

All I'm saying is that I remember exactly what I was doing

1 year and 3 days ago.

Getting all pretty and dolled up

Picking up someone who I still think about o c c a s i o n a l l y

Introducing them to my aDDicTion

Reading in the auditorium while waiting for the previews

Grabbing tight as soon as I saw Edward walk in

AHH

Not to mention the cold hands that held mine before they said bye

I'm h o p e l e s s !

Seriously I know I've mentioned this before,

but I got a feeling I will love this movie.

Sucks that I didn't feel the same way about the book.

I feel like somehow I'm stuck on the same situation

Bella was at in New Moon.

Except for the werewolf part.

I need to get me a Jacob.

Something to distract me!

Two Hundred and Twenty-Six

"You never see the hard days in a photo album...

but those are the ones that get you from one happy snapshot to the next."

-Just Married

You know what really gets me all whirled up?

How we never worked at it.

Brittany and Ashton made such a cute couple.

Did I mention how much I hate breakups?

One Hundred Ninety-Two

Whether gift or curse

I was brought to this world with something others don't have.

I have yet to learn how to use it

as of now it just comes naturally.

It's something that has occurred in various occasions.

It's starts at the pit of my stomach

and it rises all the way to the tip of my tongue.

When this happens,

I know something is not right.

I can't tell the future, I do not really know what's going to happen.

But when this feeling does occur.

I always know something is wrong.

Something out of the ordinary is about to happen.

It first happened when I found out my parents got divorced.

The whole day I felt sick, until my aunt came up to me and she told me my mom is no longer married to my father.

That tore me apart

Then a few years later, it happened again.

The news was I was going to be a big sister.

Not from both of my parents.

But just my dad's kid.

As time went by I forgot about this feeling.

I started my first long term relationship.

That knot in my stomach happened.

I knew I was going to loose my virginity.

Sounds lame, maybe unreal but I knew.

Then a few months later

to discover I was getting played.

I didn't have to look no further,

The tangles of my intestines just kept knotting.

Few days later, I read it on a myspace page.

Today I was working out,

I saw him all dressed up

I knew it.

I didn't have to ask but I just wanted to confirm.

I couldn't even reach my house without having the feeling to throw up.

I called and from there I had it.

The truth.

Not sensitive,

just thrown out flat.

Does he know he hurts me?

Does he know that the coldness just leaves me to pain?

When darkness turns to light,

it ends tonight.

This is the end.

No more wondering what will happen.

No more thinking he's the one.

His insensitive just broke the last piece of me.

And whoever reads this and thinks it's foul

He's foul for doing what he's doing to me.

He fed me lies, and I believed them.

Now only to throw me around like dirt.

Stupid me keeps asking if he hates me.

What kind of question is that?

He never loved.

When you love someone

you just don't treat them bad.

I have a picture for today but I just don't want to post it.

It's something happy.

Truth be told, I am not.

I'm torn.

I just never knew he would do me like that.

But not to worry.

I've learned bad, hurtful situations will constantly arise;

how we handle them is all that matters in the end.

So this is my happy photo.

My scholarship money.

Hopefully I save this money and use it for my national exam.

Today they told us everything is changing for our class.

From computer test

to radiographs

to full mouth probes

and

infection control

YAY

Can't wait for March.

My grumpy pants were just put on and I don't think I will be changing them in a while.

"You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done"

-Avril Lavigne

One Hundred Eighty-One

OSCE

despite the pointless examinations

we opened doors to other friendships.

I can't wait to see how many exams I failed.

GREY'S SEASON 6 PREMIERE

"When we are dying or has suffered a catastrophic lost, we all move through five distinct stages of grief. We go into denial, because the lost is so unthinkable, we can’t imagine its truth. We become angry with everyone, angry with survivors, angry with ourselves. Then we bargain. We beg, we plead, we offer everything we have, we offer up our souls; in exchange for one more day. When the bargaining has failed, and the anger is too hard to maintain, we fall into depression, despair. Until finally, we have to accept that we have done everything we can. We let go. We let go and move into acceptance."

My drug for the next 15 weeks.

wow..

my stomach just knotted nasty.

I hate this feeling.

BUT if you look for it,

you better believe you will find it.

It just sucks

I have no idea what the heck happened.

BOYS are just GROSS

PHOTO CREDIT

One Hundred Seventy-Six

With the Maid of Honor and Bride to Be

Today was an eventful day

I participated in a bridal shower

and birthday party.

It was also Genesis 5th birthday

which I must show you baby Markcuz

I keep saying he looks exactly like David.

I think it's a cover up... I really do think it's David's son.

But whatever he's soo cute I had to eat him...

He was delicious.

p.s

He's officially deleted/blocked from everything.

Today I poured my heart out

and all I got was

"Why would you miss little ol' me"

FUCK OFF.

It feels like it was only me in a relationship for 7 months.

One Hundred Sixty-Nine

Hazelnut Ice Coffee was the BEST invention!

and just because he's been in my head the whole FREAKING day today:

All that I am left with are questions with no answers.

No signs or clues as to where and why he left.

My heart still aches from the loneliness.

And I can't help but wonder...

Does he think of me

The way that I think of him?

One Hundred Sixty-One

Sushi once again..

this time I was accompanied by the daddydukes

and Miss Jessica

we had some Saki Bombs

and let me tell you they are silent creepers

Then later we went to vagabond

I was supposed to go to round up

but my Broward crew decided to sell out

my cousin decided to get her period also

there were too many people selling out

so we decided not to waste gas and go so far

I've never been to vagabond

it had a nice atmosphere.

lots of cute boys to pick and choose from

although I had my eyes on a particular one

I was gonna tell him something..

I went to the bathroom and got out

and I did not see him no more.

YES I was pretty tipsy

lol

I haven't felt this liberal in a while

I'm falling in love with myself again

and it feels awesome.

One Hundred Fifty-Six

aph·ro·di·si·ac

Why is it that I never eat sushi with a boy?

lol

So I finally saw the one time summer movie I've been wanting to see.

Too bad it wasn't with the person who I first said to watch it with me.

C'est la vie

Someone decided to bring their baby over to watch the movie as well

and let me tell you that it was so annoying.

I love babies... but don't bring one to a 10pm showtime

You know your baby is going to cry.

Then they get mad because they're getting shhhhed at

of course you're going to get reprimanded.

RUDE and CHEAP people

too broke to afford a babysitter

The movie brought back so many good memories

but I know I can never have that with him anymore.

Because whatever we both have become,

we do not have the undo buttons

to go back and start over again.

Maybe it is better this way.

who knows?

I will be a Dental Hygienist

by the end of this year

that I do know

and I also know I will start seeking

on travel plans

maybe a study abroad.

Those are the goals

I know how to control

and I am sticking to those.

One Hundred Fifty-Four

"It's not about proceeding for the right thing, but also proceeding at the right time."

Dropping off Megan today at the airport, I saw this little buddy.

And later on today...

can you guess where it's aiming to?

I'm in the biggest discomfort right now as I type.

I hate boys and their stupid penises.

And again we're off to another breakup.

I was surfing channels and I stopped at 21

and Joel Osteen was preaching...

God is simply amazing.

He just knows where to reach you

and what to say.

I feel better.

One Hundred Fifty-One

One more kiss could be the best thing

Or one more lie could be the worst

And all these thoughts are never resting

And you're not something I deserve.

-3 Doors Down

One Hundred Fifty

Back to Basics

today school started.

Started eating healthy again

started working out too.

And now I'm watching Tru Blood

First episode.

I decided not to mention anything that bothers me anymore

instead....

I will just write them down

and when they get to _

I will share it

***

p.s

Tru Blood sucks

horrible acting

accent is not real

everyone's teeth are MESSED up

including the main character's

the vampire is not sexy

it so did not attract me to it one bit.

Jessica said to watch the next episode but it got late.

Ampy had these in her desk today and I thought they were so pretty.

I'm a big fan of sunflowers and orchids

but the colors of these just made me so attracted to them.

I wish he knew I like the cute simple things.

Is that he does know but he just doesn't do them.

Why did I fall in love again?

That's just my mean talk

whatever.

goodnight

One Hundred Forty-Seven

My almost perfect diamond.

Too bad almost doesn't count.

"You and me

We used to be together

Everyday together always

I really feel

That I'm losing my best friend

I can't believe

This could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go

And if it's real

Well I don't want to know"

One Hundred Forty-Three

Monchi lost his virginity today.

Hopefully Molly becomes a momma.

Someone also decided to apologize and walk the plank for forgiveness.

I was waiting on that. Maybe we needed time. But whatever it was that was needed, it happened. And now we're back together. lol. Let's see how this pulls through.

“A boy is a magical creature, you can lock him out of your workshop, but you can’t lock him out of your heart. You can get him out of your study, but you can’t get him out of your mind.”