One Hundred Ninety-Six

I've done some productive things today

For starters: I walked to help cure diabetes

It was so hot but I had fun.

Then I got home took a nap and went out and studied.

I got interrupted but in a good way

My cousin came over to drop off the new Paramore album.

I have to say the album was decorated brilliant.

Very vintage/retro/weird

and i love all those 3

as I was skimming through the tracks

My ears noted a favorite one:

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry and curse at the wind

broke his own heart and I watched as he tried to reassemble it

and my momma swore that she would never let herself forget

and that was the day that I promised Id never sing of love if it does not exist

but darling you are the only exception

maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts

and we've got to find other ways to make it alone

keep a straight face

I've always lived like this

keeping a comfortable distance

and up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness

because none of it was ever worth the risk

well you are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on a reality but I can't let go

of what's in front of me here

I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up

leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

You are the only exception

I'm on my way to believing

I seriously have to say that this is one of the best ALBUMS!

and it couldn't have been in my possession at any better time than now.

even the title is sick!

-Brand New Eyes

total perfection

One Hundred Eighty-Three

The truth is hiding in your eyes

And its hanging on your tongue

Just boiling in my blood,

But you think that I can't see

What kind of man that you are

If you're a man at all

Well, I will figure this one out on my own

(I'm screaming "I love you so..." But my thoughts you can't decode)

And the lesson for today is concerning envy:

"Envy shoots at others, and wounds itself."

That's all I will say about tonight which will be recorded in my head for ever.

I never thought someone so close can carry so much envy.

It's a chronic disease that can lead to death.

If I can give you one last advice it will be to pray to free yourself from it.

You cannot be happy and have envy at the same time.

Its something that can eat you up as a whole.

Trust me you cannot live like that.

Your strikes lead you out of my life for good.

Never do I want to hear from you again.

You destroyed this friendship

and witnesses were there to know I did nothing but try

and relieve the situation.

My white flag is waving as I surrender.

This friendship cannot last because envy is contagious

and I do not want any of it.

Leave me how I am.

You might not think it's the proper way of living.

But I've been doing just fine.

Your sick twisted ways will always leave you in the dark.

And you will never learn until you admit you're wrong.

I cannot help you anymore

because every time I do,

it becomes a problem of my own.

I have to much on my plate to drag your issues too.

Sixty-Eight

gwen was awesome.

paramore was awesome.

it did rain a lil

but who cares.

oh and all the girls made it

EXCEPT one

can you guess?

Fifty-one

Hello No Doubt and Paramore

here we come!

This event I can't wait for!!!!

not only will i be seeing the 2 best female lead singer bands

but i will be sharing this event with the coolest chicks i know

gabriella

amy

leslie

vanessa

jessica

veronica

I will let you know how it goes.