One Hundred Eighty-Three

The truth is hiding in your eyes

And its hanging on your tongue

Just boiling in my blood,

But you think that I can't see

What kind of man that you are

If you're a man at all

Well, I will figure this one out on my own

(I'm screaming "I love you so..." But my thoughts you can't decode)

And the lesson for today is concerning envy:

"Envy shoots at others, and wounds itself."

That's all I will say about tonight which will be recorded in my head for ever.

I never thought someone so close can carry so much envy.

It's a chronic disease that can lead to death.

If I can give you one last advice it will be to pray to free yourself from it.

You cannot be happy and have envy at the same time.

Its something that can eat you up as a whole.

Trust me you cannot live like that.

Your strikes lead you out of my life for good.

Never do I want to hear from you again.

You destroyed this friendship

and witnesses were there to know I did nothing but try

and relieve the situation.

My white flag is waving as I surrender.

This friendship cannot last because envy is contagious

and I do not want any of it.

Leave me how I am.

You might not think it's the proper way of living.

But I've been doing just fine.

Your sick twisted ways will always leave you in the dark.

And you will never learn until you admit you're wrong.

I cannot help you anymore

because every time I do,

it becomes a problem of my own.

I have to much on my plate to drag your issues too.

One Hundred Sixty-One

Sushi once again..

this time I was accompanied by the daddydukes

and Miss Jessica

we had some Saki Bombs

and let me tell you they are silent creepers

Then later we went to vagabond

I was supposed to go to round up

but my Broward crew decided to sell out

my cousin decided to get her period also

there were too many people selling out

so we decided not to waste gas and go so far

I've never been to vagabond

it had a nice atmosphere.

lots of cute boys to pick and choose from

although I had my eyes on a particular one

I was gonna tell him something..

I went to the bathroom and got out

and I did not see him no more.

YES I was pretty tipsy

lol

I haven't felt this liberal in a while

I'm falling in love with myself again

and it feels awesome.

FIfty-Six

ROUND UP

western theme party

too bad i was the only one who actually went with the theme.

But there were actual sherifs and cow girls

I had tons of fun

not to mention i dropped tons of sweat.

"coconut oil tannin' senoritas 

oh now i know how jimmy buffet feels"