one Hundred Eighty-Nine

Hygiene goes to Disney

we all got Disney shirts

=D

There's always something there to remind me.

This butterfly was on steroids.

It's tough to be a bug.

Riding shot gun to the Aerosmith Concert

Never been to Epcot before

they popped my cherry

Fireworks to end the night right.

Wish he would have been next to me to see this amazing show.

one Hundred Eighty-Eight

Welcome to the Jungle.

One of my fantasies is to find a deserted Island

and be able to make up my own rules.

No fighting

No wars

Just peace and love

am I crazy to just want good things with no catch?

I'm sleeping over Lellanis today because at 3 am

we will be heading to DISNEY!

After a loooong and hectic week,

I deserve to see Mickey and Co.

You know the best part about Disney is to go and meet the characters.

I love taking pictures with them and just being a kid all over again.

I loooove going to Minnie's house.

Any who Lellanis broke her promise.

She said I will sleep with Gaby but here I am in the play room

playing house by myself.

(when I should be sleeping)

lol

I guess she knew I would wake her up just to play.

She has all these fun toys!!

As you can see she has a house

and facing the house, she has a kitchen

(which I cooked spaghetti on)

delicious!

I don't want to grow old.

Why can't we grow young?

I read this poem once that was beautifully written

Even though now that I think about it,

it wasn't a poem...

I am going to search for it and see if I can post it up here

brb....

ok so I couldn't find it.

But it's about life and how it's lived backwards.

So the author states how we should be born old and work our way young.

You get out of the senior home because you are able to take care of yourself.

You start your first job with a Rolex because of your retirement money.

You get kicked out of school because you can't read anymore.

Live your childhood years

enter the world of gooey placenta

and finally

leave to be remembered as an orgasm.

I wish I can find it one day.

I enjoyed reading it...

shhheesssh I wish that was how life works.

Who knows maybe when we die we do it all over again but backwards

like the essay/poem.

lol

Whatever I should get some rest..

Tomorrow is a big day.

By the way I will be getting my scholarship money/award tomorrow too.

And Saturday is the day I present the table clinic.

Wish me lots and lots of luck.

I will need it.

One Hundred Eighty-Two

Since I have better news I will write it on top of the depressing one.

I just got home and read the letter that notified me I won the scholarship I applied for a couple months back. I will be receiving the award/check next week Friday when I arrive at Orlando. I am so excited about this... Next week is going to be full of mixed emotions. I will be presenting my table clinic (which I haven't practice for). I will be receiving this check of $500. I will be going to Disney's theme parks, including Epcot which I've never been to. The people that I will be going with are the closest friends I've had in hygiene except for Jessica because her mom happens to get married the same weekend. It kind of sucks that I am not going to be a part of the wedding but she knows I would if I could. I'm really glad my mood is changing. I've had a sucky week. Thinking about a certain somebody that I know doesn't think of me anymore. I don't understand why on Earth I am getting the depressed symptoms now that it's been more than a month. I mean I've been pretty strong about it so why change now? I hope it was just a phase... maybe because I could be getting my monthly friend. Speaking of which, I haven't gotten her in a while and I missed my gyno appointment today. I'm telling you, I've been on a row this week. I'm just glad it's over and done with and now it's the weekend so I get to soak up and relax before the next one comes.

So I went to Olive Gardens with Leslie and Jessica today and I am still super duper stuffed from all the bread/salad/pasta!!! Oh the many carbs I devoured. Not to mention the margarita as well. Well the napkin in my chin was because every time I grabbed a spoonful of pasta, it never failed to drip on my chin lol. We couldn't stop cracking up. At least we worked out our abs from too much laughter. Any who I got back to Jessica's and started feeling stupid and blah....

"Well my diamond mean............

Ok I like diamonds and like I said it takes a diamond to cut another diamond meaning it needs something as strong as its self to bring it down to size I and I feel that I need someone just as strong as me to cut me down so am basically looking for another diamond

Make sanse?

Sense*"

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So to his definition, was I never his diamond?

Was I never as strong as him in order to share our lives together?

Is there a better diamond for his lifestyle?

Will there ever be one for me?

I don't want a new one...

I just want to finish cutting this one.

I was almost done and about to wear it as a shiny diamond ring on the finger next to the pinky that runs a vein directly to my heart.