we had doughnuts, lasagna , these little rolls of cheese ham and other stuff that were delicious.
Besides food, we had a lot of fun... there was nothing being said of pharmacology and clinic
it was just actual conversation. It was enjoyable.
Next week pharm. final!
Then after school, another fun-filled afternoon with Jesso Dezzle.
I love my friends. We can be stupid together and not care.
(As long as there is no one around lol)
P.S I saw Ugly Truth today...
I decided to end my relationship b/c someone decided to call and report at 8 pm
I was a whole day without knowing where he was... and he was not home he was out and about with his friends and he couldn't spare 5 seconds of his day to call me and tell me what he's up to. And of course at 8 he started spilling excuses on why he couldn't call me. I don't need that crap. It's bad enough I don't see him ever. Now I need to hear excuses. I've never been so disappointed at him like this. I thought he was better than this. I thought he actually was respectful and kind. Whatever moving on.. I went with the future pilot. The movie is great I totally recommend it to anyone! Heigel is the shiiiit thank god she is not quiting grey's.
lmaoo... I'm still laughing at the stupid comment of Raque and Mr. Jack Sinister (which i have yet to meet). Sometimes I wonder if my cousin is right in the head... but other times I'm just like.. if she doesn't do things this way, then it's not her. ANYWAYS.. right now im currently doing my hair! THIS ALWAYS GETS ME IN A BAD FREAKING MOOD!!!!! maybe it's because of the fact that she has no consideration of me being a human and that I feel pain. She thinks I'm a Dexter or something!! I wanted to go darker but of course... she always wants to do what she wants!! So i got highlights. I don't worry cause fuck it, my hair is gonna fade out in about 2-3 weeks and I re-do it.
I'm really suppose to be studying pharm.. but as you know.. that is not happening either. I've just been extremely busy with everything lately. And if I'm not busy, then I'm really tired. Thank goodness I finally have an insurance. I went to do a checkup the other day and he just asked a lot of questions and very little assessment. I am no doctor but I am in the dental hygiene program and I do know a lot of facts. I do know you are suppose to take my temp. and state it in my chart and not make up a random number (98.6F) just because.. what if I really had a fever? And what's up with the medical assistant not knowing what Albuterol is for. UGH! I don't have any luck with doctors.. hopefully the OB/GYN I'm going to next week is good. I really need questions answered in that category and I just want to feel the way a patient is suppose to.
Any who boy toy and I... yes we're back together but it sure doesn't feel that way. He's phone got disconnected and I haven't spoken to him in almost 2 days. We've been playing phone tag. Finally a little while ago he called me just to tell me hi and that he's going to play baseball. UM okkk correct me if I'm wrong but after a break aren't you suppose to feel relieved.. happy... innocent.... fresh start? I feel like this break didn't do anything. If anything make us much more distant than what we were. I really hate this... because he used to be the one person I can tell everything to.. and now I spend the majority of the time bickering to peeps about us. That's not healthy either but I need to talk to someone and about something.
On sunday is his birthday and we haven't even spoken about what he wants to do. I don't know what I am going to do about us anymore.. and then I feel like all the time I'm just making excuses for him to do what he's doing but I don't even know what he's thinking in he's head and if he even cares about anything. I can only stay positive for so long. And I cannot keep giving him the benefit of the doubt when he's not proving anything.
And then I got other people saying they want me as copilot. IM JUST VERY CONFUSED!
I need to stop writing before it becomes and even BIGGER issue.
We painted Monchi's nails... he was so calm and stylish afterwards. I swear he is the best dog ever. I think thats one of the reasons why these issues have been so okay to deal with. He is the one I come home to and fills me up with kisses. Baby he's my A thing lol! he's all i ever wanted. We can do it real big.. bigger than u ever done it.
My superman who later discovered had mouthful of cavities.
AND A HALF:
Day4: So today was even better.. well the truth is that it's only eight o' clock. I don't know how the night will take me.. But you know what I also discovered today? You people who are reading this must think I'm psycho. But truth of the matter is when Im escalated to the clouds and the sky like a kite... I tend to recite the must unique thoughts in my mind. So I have given it some more thoughts. Him and I are always a thing, however, throughout the years of memories I've noticed a pattern that always comes alive. It's always in the summer when him and I are at our highest. I remember summers ago it's always when we seem to be exchanging kisses and phrases. So what happen this summer? Well since I guess it's the year when it's finally official then I guess now it gets more tense.
Any ways I battled with my friend today because of the whole atheism vs. scientology :
There isn't a proper answer to this; the only thing "atheists" have in common is that they do not believe in God (or gods) and therefore do not believe the universe was created by a god. Atheists as a group are defined by what they DON'T believe, rather than by what they believe, so there is no particular consensus. True, a great many subscribe to the big bang theory, followed by evolution in one form or another. Others believe that the universe has always existed. Many others readily admit that they don't know how the universe was created, and don't believe that anyone will ever know. Others have unique theories all of there own. It's important to remember that Atheism is not a doctrine in itself, but a term describing absence of a specific doctrine.
I guess because if this my friend is so confused that they believe in a certain something.. What I believe was so ignorant about her was the fact that she chose to believe that there is no other belief in the world except evolution. Evolution is and will always be a theory until someone discovers and half human/half monkey being. The thing with me is that I am open to any thing and everything but... I also believe that since I am open their are a lot of thoughts and many beliefs on how the world and life is brought upon. Clearly stating that is a belief but NO MAN has ever actually stated the actual truth on who life and world is created. So what ever you believe in you have to know there are others and not just your own.
DAY 3: good bye mom and papi. they left me to D.R. today early in the morning! yeah.. this photo was shot like at 6 in the am. i think i was too tired to even check. I could be lying maybe a little later than that b/c now that i remember i DID look at my phone and I saw a message from him saying "good morning." So it was like around 9! lol I'm such an exaggerator! any who today was an eventful day.. the only texts today were the ones just mentioned above! so yeh.. BUT i have good news... I have a good feeling about this today.. but before I get onto the drama.. I must inform you on what I did today. I made engagements to meet up with an old friend of mine (and her nieces) to have a pool day. It was fun.. I ate some of her cultural food i guess. lol... fish arabian rice tomati and beets! (MIND YOU SHE'S BRAZILIAN) lol! but all i could say is that it's very different than to how my mom cooks it. Then I went to Jordi's game which he lost! the moment i got there he was batting and he made a HOMERUN! but still those kids are good. PLUS MONCHI almost made a homerun for them!! he got loose and he started running all over the field. EVERYONE had to chase him. According to my brother, he said that the empire was super PIST! but whatever.. is not like if i did it on purpose. SORRRY!!! dammit! Then i worked out.. and I went out with Lisette because she was super mad because I did not tell her that I was single. So we went to go see 'My Sister's Keeper' wow....!!! let me tell you that that movie does not play! when they said DRAMA .. they really meant it! Cameron Diaz plays a perfect role and so does that little girl that also plays in 'Definitely Maybe' and the father need i say he's HOTTTT! and the other sister KATE! wow... her role was to the T!! she was fantastic! Anyway GREAT movie!! a lot of tears shed. And after we spoke about the infamous BREAK i am currently in.. and that's when everything hit me.. the reason for this break and the outcome of it.... I must say i got help from some movie preview... I think it is called.. 'The Wife of the Time Traveler' I must see it when it comes out. But yeah.. I know that he loves me.. and I know most certainty why he needs this time alone. Yes everyone can tell me what they think.. if they were in his or my shoes.. but no one knows what's going on. I can try and put 38702937 million negative things in my head on why he put this 'break' on us... but i know that thats bologna (like the commercial) I know that he's going through rough times... and most importantly his mind level is not where mine is @ the moment. He is still thinking about friends etc. and stuff while I'm thinking more about us and more futuristic levels. And he knows that physically it could be impossible for him to jump on the level with me.. b/c where he is standing @ the moment. And that's why he needs time to gather thoughts and try to grow to where I am at. But what he doesn't know is that I know this nor that by just communication of his actual problems, we can foresee this. Hence the fact he is 19 and I am 21.
So yeah he needs to grow a little.. just a little in order for him to realize that this is just a bump.. and by talking we can get through it. And also I am not helping with just stating my problems only when I am about to pop! that is also unreasonable from me but HEY thats the reason why we must grow together. Yet he knows that I wanna have fun and that while he's doing this maturing, I really don't have to be there with him getting all the nasty side effects this growing contraindicates. So yeh.. I know I made up all this conclusion in my head. But yeah this is not a movie.. this is elliott and susan.. the peeps who met each other a loong time ago and with the simple help of a shooting star, all of this happened. So I just needs to do exactly what he told me to do. Which is 'everything I want' in order to wait it out while he is maturing. Simplicity! See Wall-E also had to change a little in order for Eve and him to be together. He was so stuck on the old.. he couldn't digest all the new stuff that Eve can do. =D Another reason why Wall-E is soo perfect for us. (I'm wearing the shirt) ok tell me this isn't freaking HE JUST TEXTED ME!!! and as soon as I was going to write... my phone froze and RESET.. AHHHHH should I take it as a sign?
went to school thought my patient was going to suck!! but it turned out she will be my new FINAL! sooo im taking my final now on MONDAY! (wish me Luck) she has really perfect teeth.. she said that she brushed like 239847986 a day! Today the texting was 'normal' BUT later on.. we got into another bug storm! maybe this isn't suppose to work. maybe we are just suppose to be friends forever. I mean that's the only way I can talk to him and he can be good with me! Besides the fact.. today I met this brilliant girl that goes by the name of Karol (i think thats how you spell it) well yeah we were both using the computers @ the library and then some guy decided to talk to her about her tattoos and then since i have ADD i decided to look over there. We started talking.. she's studying to be a nurse but has passion for art... she's a gemini.. she keeps a book of doodles that i must say that they are not doodles. She found the perfect gemini symbol. We both agreed that gemini symbols are the ugliest ones in the zodiac. i mean anyone can draw a II who can't.. so she found this amazing drawing of two angels one playing a harp and the other one i forgot the other instrument. I SWEAR if i see her again im going to ask her if i can take a pic of it. She also keeps fortune cookie messages. And then since I've never bonded with another gemini we started talking about each other to see if we are alike. We both would love to do everything in this world. And then I realized that it's not the fact that we want to do it.. but the actual idea is the one that causes the excitement. Like right now with this whole break.. yeah sometimes im in a downer.. but at times I'm like ok this is new. which takes me to another subject.. we love change. We connected very much. I stopped doing my NSPT report and everything it was really neat. And since she's in nursing she incorporated a lot of the anatomy structures in her drawings. It was really cool. So i learned something yesterday.. 42.7 percent of statistics are made up on the spot! lol! i thought that was hilarious! and another little thing to keep you wonder...
BUT THIS IS DEEP SO PAY ATTENTION: What if the people who 'see' things.. like hallucinations.. what if they are not the crazy ones.. what if we're just blocked from seeing it and really they have the gift to just oversee that. Why is it that everything that we cannot see is 'taboo' yet we believe in a God who is invisible to most of us? What if we are the smallest things in this planet? What if we are all just experiments from another Galaxy? lol I know I just threw a lot of things there to absorb but yeah we went really deep. And this is exactly what I miss from my babycakes. the fact that i cannot express my mind to him anymore... =/ By the way.. what does the photo make you think about? To me it expresses that we are going into fire.. or that we are trying to see if there it's possible to leave the dull life behind and go into something different.
so I woke up early (no good morning text) went out with Cindy and her man and a friend to go Jet Skiing. While I was getting ready I heard my mom talking to Cindy saying how back in the days even if there was no money her and her friends use to go to the beach and drink some wine and have fun. I guess she was defending me! Yeah, that was a FIRST! But no, I'm not going to lie, lately she's been on my side for almost everything. She still trips for no reason but yeah she has my back! I went to BK and no lie, I saw like 3 corvettes and not the shiny brand new ones, BUT the old old ones. And what did I want to do? But of course take a pic and email it to someone! But i bit my tongue and NOPE I did not! Because we are on a break. The best part of today was when the Jet Ski was going 60 MPH and the wind was so loud I couldn't hear myself think. All I had was the waves and wind blasting in my ear and the occasional splashed of salt water in my face. Having nothing to think about is a HARD task to accomplish. Your mind is always running on thoughts. But I have to admit today wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I had a pretty good time. BUTTTT! then ... like always you get home, and your family is here and once again the 21 questions from your uncle... "donde esta ellio?" "por que yo no lo veo por aqui?" AHHHHHH! why can't everyone just SHUT UP! OH and then I have ms. RIVERO texting me... why are you lonely? when yesterday she was telling me how she doesn't know why SHE bothered texting me. Now she's just doing it for the cheese. I HATE GIRLS! Okay I confess.. I just text him. I couldn't help myself! Wish me luck!
I swear if this mister can be a model, I would have sign him up a long time ago! can you imagine? Him signing autographs with his cute smelly paws? my dreams come true! Haa! well yeah this spicy lil meatball has stolen my heart like you have no idea. He's just too cute.. I just wish I can train him. I went to a park today to play tennis and there was a little chihuahua fetching the ball and giving it back to his owner. I wish Monchi can do that. But whatever... he's a brat.. a SPOILED little brat. Well tomorrow supposedly I will go to a water park with the babester and Daisy and my dad and carlos.. so let's see.. I will give you my update tomorrow. Today was the memorial to Michael Jackson. It was amazing goosebumps, teary eyes, the whole nine yards. Performances from Usher, Usher (LMAOOOO.. DORy moment for laura and ailyn) John Mayer, Mariah Carey, etc. It was truly amazing. And once again... my dreams on changing this world has been enforced. But I have to stand up b/c no one will just push me to it. I mean that's the purpose of it being a goal. I need to stop letting these distractions get to me.. People talk to bring you down. My dreams are my dreams and not yours. That's why everyone is special and different. If not, we would be robots and everyone would be perfect. So HEARS to my dreams coming true.. Some Day!
So 4th of July Celebration ended at Dolce. Once again coincidentally, I met up with Yensi, however this time he was with Yule too. So the whole night I spent it with them. It was nice because I found out that yensi has a dancing side to him that I have never met. I originally went with Laura but she left me for a boy which was all good cause I had 2 with me. Afterwards, I went to babuh's house where I basically saw the sun come up... we went to sleep at around 7 after some great LOVE making... let me tell you it's still indescribable =D totally breathless. Any who.. we woke up at around 3:40 pm and then there was a ghetty at his house with all his friends and stuff. jose kept bragging about some arbor mist lol =DD i looove that shit. ohh and the hubby and I had a talk today. starting from now on... we have to have a creative alone time.. =D soo let's see how creative we get. He's birthday is coming up! I need to start getting creative with his present.
Happy FOURTH of July. I woke up super early and joined Megs and her family on a boat ride all throughout Miami Beach. It was nice @ first the weather was kinda ICKY! but it cleared up and I got a whole bunch of sun. Everyone had a good time. Ms. Fatty Cheeks a.k.a Madison and her cute polk-a-dot Bikini! =DDDDD Megan's granny that was too funny catching some sun. She would drop her top down low of her one piece bathing suit and just stare at the sky with her big shades. It was nice. And i saw parts of Miami that i haven't seen before... It was beautiful.. I live in an amazing city.
A hygienist who lives to travel the world. I have completed my 365 project. Taking a photo every day for one year taught me the importance of making memories last. That's exactly what I intend to do for the rest of my life.