One Hundred Fifty-Seven

I told a fire breathing dragon he bet not harm me,

or be sorry

when he meets my one man army.

One Hundred Fifty-Six

aph·ro·di·si·ac

Why is it that I never eat sushi with a boy?

lol

So I finally saw the one time summer movie I've been wanting to see.

Too bad it wasn't with the person who I first said to watch it with me.

C'est la vie

Someone decided to bring their baby over to watch the movie as well

and let me tell you that it was so annoying.

I love babies... but don't bring one to a 10pm showtime

You know your baby is going to cry.

Then they get mad because they're getting shhhhed at

of course you're going to get reprimanded.

RUDE and CHEAP people

too broke to afford a babysitter

The movie brought back so many good memories

but I know I can never have that with him anymore.

Because whatever we both have become,

we do not have the undo buttons

to go back and start over again.

Maybe it is better this way.

who knows?

I will be a Dental Hygienist

by the end of this year

that I do know

and I also know I will start seeking

on travel plans

maybe a study abroad.

Those are the goals

I know how to control

and I am sticking to those.

One Hundred Fifty-Five

Did you know that now Publix had indicators to let you know what is organic

and what is not?

I was impressed.

I did a whole bunch of studying today

and a lot of fun stuff too

lol

Jessica and I organized how exactly we will study for

the comprehensive exam which is in

2 weeks!

YIKES

But we organized pretty good

hopefully we go as planned.

***

Later on,

I worked for the first time as a valet parker.

It was nice.

I enjoyed it

I was charging the guest

at first I did a couple of mess ups

but I quickly fixed it

My dad was proud

he said he will take me more often

He said I have good people attitude.

Finally a compliment.

He always has a complaint

just like he's father.

argh

I got paid $100 for the night

I needed that

I gotta pay bills

and that stupid CLICKER

we will never use.

One Hundred Fifty-Four

"It's not about proceeding for the right thing, but also proceeding at the right time."

Dropping off Megan today at the airport, I saw this little buddy.

And later on today...

can you guess where it's aiming to?

I'm in the biggest discomfort right now as I type.

I hate boys and their stupid penises.

And again we're off to another breakup.

I was surfing channels and I stopped at 21

and Joel Osteen was preaching...

God is simply amazing.

He just knows where to reach you

and what to say.

I feel better.

One Hundred Fifty-Three

Booty booty booty booty rocking everywhere.

haa haa

today Angela was telling a story about "booty" spray

that makes is smell like Booty

and so I mentioned how Booty is boo's dog

and when I come in and say "it smells like booty"

it can be taken 2 ways

lol whatever inside joke for those who are lost.

Today was our first "patient" day

lordy lord.

hectic yet fun

I must admit.

Morning patient AWESOME

Afternoon patient coo coo for cocoa puffs

That's all I will mention.

And that I love my friends

if it weren't for them

none of this would be so easy.

I received some news today

which I didn't know how to take

I'm still &%*$#@!

lol

any ways...

I went to Boo's house

he cooked me my favorite dish.

mash potatoes and chicken

yum yum yum!!!!!

I've been missing out on a lot because of my brain

But I swear I don't mean it

My thoughts just get the best of me.

or worst?

I interviewed his grandma

which made me a little sad..

I wish I could interview my grandma

It's not fair sometimes...

it really isn't

People say I don't care

BUT I really do I just don't want to affiliate.

whatever... I'm not going to start..

I have some interesting stuff to write about on the essay.

Wait and see

I might post it.

One Hundred Fifty-Two

Today would have been the first day of school

if it wasn't that Miami-Dade didn't change their policy.

Anyways, I went to the freshman orientation that left me at a stage of shock

I still cannot believe I am a senior

I remember looking at the clinic manual and reading stuff

that only applied to clinic 4 and 5

and thinking to myself,

I wish I was there already...

guess what?

I'm there already

it feels like just yesterday.

Anyways, today we had communities

and I think that this will be my favorite class

When I had to do the service learning

back in clinic 1 or 2

(can't really remember)

I enjoyed it so much.

And this is what this class is all about.

From now on, every time I hear

"The Climb"

from Miley Cyrus

I will forever think of Dental Hygiene

Dr. Kass had passed outthe lyrics to the song

and to me it was very meaningful

(Truly)

ok... skipping the emo part.

after class, Lellanis, Jessica, and I

were talking about prego and I walked into the sign that's above.

So I took it as a sign:

Lellanis is pregnant

and the way the sun was hitting

I think she's having a boy.

=D

watch and see ladies and gents

I know you're reading

BTW

I really messed up tonight

took respect and shoved it out the door

(more like slammed it)

I blew it

One Hundred Fifty-One

One more kiss could be the best thing

Or one more lie could be the worst

And all these thoughts are never resting

And you're not something I deserve.

-3 Doors Down

One Hundred Fifty

Back to Basics

today school started.

Started eating healthy again

started working out too.

And now I'm watching Tru Blood

First episode.

I decided not to mention anything that bothers me anymore

instead....

I will just write them down

and when they get to _

I will share it

***

p.s

Tru Blood sucks

horrible acting

accent is not real

everyone's teeth are MESSED up

including the main character's

the vampire is not sexy

it so did not attract me to it one bit.

Jessica said to watch the next episode but it got late.

Ampy had these in her desk today and I thought they were so pretty.

I'm a big fan of sunflowers and orchids

but the colors of these just made me so attracted to them.

I wish he knew I like the cute simple things.

Is that he does know but he just doesn't do them.

Why did I fall in love again?

That's just my mean talk

whatever.

goodnight

One Hundred Forty-Nine

Sundays will forever be made for Monchi and me.

One Hundred Forty-Eight

"I got a skunk in my cup

If you smell it come and get it

shawty i don't give a %$#@"

Skig love..

haa the good old days.

They are slowly coming back.

I spoke to him today.

I mentioned someone I thought I was going to regret.

But I think it actually made him think.

Let's see what happens.

.......

Nothing freaking happened.

He doesn't notice anything.

Maybe like a 3 hour convo with the sister

I think she's the only one that I can speak to bout him.

It's weird because she's not my sister but I know she reasons with who ever actually has it.

And she sees things that I do that he can't.

AHH why can't it be vice versa?

One Hundred Forty-Seven

My almost perfect diamond.

Too bad almost doesn't count.

"You and me

We used to be together

Everyday together always

I really feel

That I'm losing my best friend

I can't believe

This could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go

And if it's real

Well I don't want to know"

One Hundred Forty-Six

And this is what I remember:

Yensi- You remember when we use to watch the dog and cat movie in your apartment?

Me- No but I remember when we would always hang in my apartment.

Yensi- Yeah just Yule, you, and me

Me- Yeah I remember

Yensi- Well that's when I knew me and you were going to hang out in the future

Me- ::kiss kiss kiss kiss::

Yensi- Then Raquel Aida just shows up out of no where and I knew us three would cause damage

Me- lol

One Hundred Forty-Five

Re-united and it feels sooo good.

lol

I forgot how much we use to break it down.

the crowd went crazy.

One Hundred Forty-Four

And He gets the girl...

he's still pooped out.

One Hundred Forty-Three

Monchi lost his virginity today.

Hopefully Molly becomes a momma.

Someone also decided to apologize and walk the plank for forgiveness.

I was waiting on that. Maybe we needed time. But whatever it was that was needed, it happened. And now we're back together. lol. Let's see how this pulls through.

“A boy is a magical creature, you can lock him out of your workshop, but you can’t lock him out of your heart. You can get him out of your study, but you can’t get him out of your mind.”

One Hundred Forty-Two

Finally, a sign that lead us to some fun in the sun.

and later on that night....

The day was just too perfect for the Incubus concert.

RULE OF THUMB #2:

Never ask to get a kiss. If you feel the mood is right, go for it.

If it wasn't, and you get rejected, at least you tried.

Asking is just basically meaning your too coward and waiting on a NO.

And if you're going to ask for a kiss, at least ask for a dance when possible.

One Hundred Forty-One

Even when the weather is bad @ the Keys,

We still party it up!

One Hundred Forty

So we were supposed to leave like at three today. And now it's 8 pm and we are still here at Jessica's house. Jessica is not in the brightest of all moods. she got her monthly friend.. (so did I on the 12th). And let me tell you that it's very very heavy. Well I think we are actually leaving right now before JESSICA BITES MY HEAD OFF! Her house right now is a HOT ZONE! yikes!!!

One Hundred Thirty-Nine

Cohiba

One Hundred Thirty-Eight

Eventually, one will turn into my prince.

One Hundred Thirty-Seven

I love how music inspires me to do so much

it's the door to any emotion

today could have been an extremely bad day because of the news i received

(read below if interested)

But yes 3 special tracks changed my day to a different point of view.

I'm not say complete 180 but it made me pass the bad time

not only that but my friends as well.... lol

I got creative and started doing a video of Monchi's birthday

that might get posted here. who knows

Well the creativity i have to thank

the Avett brothers and Noah and the Whales

Well it's really thanks to Lauren who posted her video on her blog

and I saw it and of course my mind started lol.

I hope she reads this right now

because I also saw that she wrote she doesn't like mentioning her ideas

I think it's awesome to be very open about your ideas

if she wouldn't have posted her video

I wouldn't have gotten creative and my day would have been HORRIBLE!

Yeah it sucks that sometimes your ideas lead to someone's fame and fortune

but I am a great believer in Karma, whether good or bad

It does exist.

Since I started doing my video I've been thinking about a great soundtrack to put

since I've been so lyrical today

And i ran through Jack Johnson's

Upside down

and I found a Winner.

This song has made me smile.

I think I'm finally back.

I broke my piggy bank today

All for some tasty HazelNut Ice Coffees from Mickey D's

It was just right! But it never fails Jessica always has some more after I finish.

******

Ever woken up to bad news?

Why is it that women always suffer?

Since Adam and Eve we have always had the worst end compare to men. For Adam, he had to sweat for his food. Dont' women have to do that too?

As a matter of fact everyone has to do that labor in order to live.

Now for Eve, she could have bore children without pain, but because she did wrong, now she and the rest of women have to bore children through pain. Come on! Only women can become pregnant. Why the heck can this pain be shared among women and men?

It took us forever to gain rights in this lovely place we call Land of the Free. Even today a BLACK man became President before a woman. So where does it leave us women? We are at the bottom of the food chain compare to everyone else. In other cultures, women are slaves to their husbands while their husbands have other wives. Why do we let this happen to us?

While I have a theory for that question, I don't wish to write about that today.

Rather the pain and suffering us women go through. Which can never ever be felt by another gender.

We are hit daily with double standards. Men can have sex with whomever and be called PIMPS, while women try to have that much fun and then they're called SLUTS.

Even women bashes their own gender when we get higher rankings at life. (Hence the reason why we don't upscale in this world, because we are so busy trying to do our selves, then actually helping women kind.)

Now that I think about it, women are born with a distinct calling. We want to be independent. We want to be so competitive at what we do, that we forget to help other women trying to be like us. We are helpers in people calling us what they do.

In today's music culture, men want these independent woman. Miss Independent, one that can cook, clean, pay her own bills, etc. Why isn't there a song were the lyrics are dedicated to men? We are getting programed to live this kinda life. Because that's what men want us to do to make it so much easier for them. I don't know if I am making so much sense in writing but it's making enough sense inside my head. Why do we once again have to have a standard of living in order to impress the media. That's why I love TLC, they actually went Public when they stated they want NO SCRUBS! Then later on Destiny's Child comes up with Can You Pay My Bills? Going to the right direction but not quite we still have these men top of the charts.

I'm feeling very feminist right now because seriously, we don't get treated right. I've always heard that God made men first because he needed a rough draft... but men have it very easy. During my pathology class, almost always the risk factor to every disease is WOMEN. (Quick confession, in my tests, I always circled the 'women' answer.) It seems like our gender has to do some tune finning because we always have the worst diseases and pain.

And who said men are stronger than women? Who said men can tolerate more pain than women? I've seen men at the dentist office FLIP out when they have to get numb. I've seen tears in their eyes. Just yesterday I was assisting for an 11 year old female getting fillings on 2 teeth. The doctor told her she needs to get numb because the decay might have gotten in the nerve, and she looked at me in the eyes and I saw her hand come up. She took a hold of it a tighten it real hard. No tears just very hard grip. Unfortunately for me, she grabbed the hand that has the ring, and my hand was pulsating. But I couldn't let go. She was alone and she was just so brave. And that's just one example. I have a whole bunch.

Like always, my point gets lost somewhere in this essay. All I'm saying is, when the hell is it that women will finally get a chance to break free? We need to work together. God needs to find remedies for all of these disease that women are risk factors for and flip them to men. I think men need to suffer a little in order for them to see how much we go through. They need to give labor. They need to get domestically abused. They need to get rejected for not being big breast and blonde. They need to feel the pain.

One Hundred Thirty-Six

"Don't make the mistake of treating your dogs like humans,

or they'll treat you like dogs."

-Martha Scott

So Monday..

2 more weeks of vacation and then back to school

GOSH!

I feel like the break was just 2 seconds!

How am I suppose to miss it if we have to come right back?

lol

I worked today... the first and only day of the week because the doctor

is going on vacation.. however she's leaving on Friday

so I'm guessing something went wrong with her planning.

Any who it was extremely busy. I mean I barely had a chance to eat lunch.

But whatever I like it like that. Time flies supper duper fast and before I know it

it's time to go already.

I worked out also.

which I got a beautiful souvenir from it.

Since I didn't stop running until I completed the 3 laps

I didn't notice my thunder thighs were rubbing up against each other.

So both my thighs have nasty burns

And it hurts.

YOU HAVE NO IDEA!

That's what I get for having huge thighs.

DE PINGUS

So I made watermelon popsicles

they were tasty however

Monchi just kept smelling it

and not falling for it.

He only likes Fatty Foods.

ohh and I missed half of teen choice awards.

One Hundred Thirty-Five

What has happened to me?

I started school so eager to help people's mouth and see outcomes. And now I just want to get the job done and next. I was reading my essay application for Jamaica and I noticed I have changed so much. I was so eager to try and go and help and see and conquer. Do I still want those same things? I still talk about it when asked. But is it still my passion? I don't know if break-ups are suppose to take down every other feeling I have inside of me. But this is exactly how it feels. This shit sucks. I was voted fundraiser of my class and I don't think I have done something out of the ordinary. This is exactly why for the break and I am going to do the things I once had fun doing. The things that excited me, the things that made me join this program. I don't want to go back to school and dread it. I have a very difficult semester coming up and I need to find the good before I focus on the bad. Maybe it's also because school was so overwhelming and the break still hasn't hit me yet. But whatever it is.. it's not going to last long because I am going to find what I lost. This person that has taken control of me will not have that power anymore. I am almost finished with The Host, and when I'm done I will start reading the Pathology book and Periodontology, and then I have to find the book from Erica

Yong, Fear of Flying. I need to set up goals in order to attain them. I can't just walk without crawling. It's like starting all over again, but when I get to the person I once was, I just have to continue building her from where I left off. I just have to find her again.

So tonight we celebrated Jenny's 22 birthday over at Monty's. It was nice because the moon was Full. That's what that yellow dot in the back of me is in the picture. I got a little tipsy. I drank something called pain killer. It has 3 varieties #1,2,3. 1=1 shot of rum; 2=2 shots of rum and so forth. I had #2 so that it won't be beginners or expert. lol. Even though the pain I have cannot be taken away with this. Of that I was sure. I mean if everyone can cure their heart aches with a drink called painkiller the world would be a little... to easy. Don't you think? Any who I had a good time and for the most part, the pain was bearable.

One Hundred Thirty-Four

I found a new way to turn your frown upside down..

"They thought I wanted a stripper with a huge CLOCK"

omg you have no idea how hard I cracked up with this little birthday card.

I always had a thing for cards, but I didn't know that if I read them

while I wasn't feeling ok, it would bring my mood up.

And to be perfectly honest, I didn't get this card right away.

Laugh all you want and call me slow, but I wasn't in the right level.

But yeah, so today I went to Target with Jessica and Janette.

We were looking for bridal shower invitations for her mother.

that's how I happen to run by this.

Any who Janette spoke words of wisdom today that

helped me see through these blinded eyes of mine.

With the first heart break of mine

I suffer tremendously and almost went crazy

but I got over it and became this Independent woman

I began to fall in love with.

This woman brought herself so many goals to accomplish,

that at the time is slowly working up to them

one goal at a time

building a higher step than the last one built

slowly getting to her top dreams

and during this construction

she encounter someone in the past

who knew the person she was before she fell in love with herself

This person also knew the new woman inside of her.

However he couldn't be able to work with her.

Almost as if they are not compatible anymore

She started seeing this old person that once lived inside her.

And she didn't want this person back in

It was a difficult decision making because

she also fell in love with the new boy

but she's so much more in love with Independent self,

she wants someone who loves that person she became.

Not bring out the old one. And since I've realized this

I am not going to put myself in a situation where the old me can get revealed

that person is already a stranger to me.

I want to keep building this new person I am loving.

And sooner or later, find the half that loves this new me.

And I know it can happen because it happened before

and now I am more knowledgeable.

No mistakes, Just lessons learned.

-Thanks Janette

One Hundred Thirty-Three

Kitty looks like Thumper.

RULE OF THUMB #1:

Never ever let me find out something you're doing by someone else.

PENALTY:

depending on the severity it can cause

-automatic strike out

-disqualification

-out for the season

One Hundred Thirty-Two

I don't know why I always feel like i have to explain myself. I see people always doing what they do just because and no questions as to why or what triggered them to do it. Yet i'm always freaking feel the need to explain myself. I think that can be a good and bad quality. Good in the medical field when your explaining to your patient what procedure your doing. I've noticed it causes the patient to be more at ease. But my personal life.... why do i get so involved with people? Why must i welcome them into my thoughts and feelings if they don't do the same?

And you thought I wasn't going to post a pic?

Ha H aHa Ha! today was Jaaziel's birthday. I went to the movies with Jessica to watch Funny People.. which really isn't that funny. I cried. Reminded me of someone I really didn't want to get reminded of. And to tell you the truth it made me want to know what he's up to. GOSH

Any who today Incubus was in my head the whole entire day.. and they helped me get a whole other definition to the song Dig. I guess I had to wait till this feeling happened to me in real life in order for it to understand it. "If I turn into another, Dig me up from under what is covering, the better part of me, Sing this song, remind me that we always have each other, when everything else is gone.

Well lately the boy toy hasn't been acting like himself. I swear he changed on me. He doesn't believe these changes are visible, but only I can feel them happening. A lot of things he used to do he now doesn't do. And like seriously i miss them. Bro this guys use to be the one who made my tummy ache of all the butterflies he would fill inside me. And now he's just the guy who gets me mad and who's jokes I don't understand. He himself has had a song stuck with him and one of the versus is.. "forever my fiance." So am I ever going to get any more serious with him? Is this it? For ever will I be treated this way by him? Because it kinda sucks and I can't get used to this. Something has to happen.

One Hundred Thirty-One

There's just too many pictures for this particular day. Today is Monchi's Birthday. I decided to throw him a pool party and invite his buddies. I got 3 kitty pools, water balloons, food, treats, toys, etc. We had too much fun. Everyone ended up inside the pools because the boys were just throwing everyone. Of course I have to swallow that nasty water. I start coughing and almost gaged. YUCK! I just have to post more pictures because I cannot just pin point the best one. So the first one was of all the people that were there at the time. (Pegasus, Blacky, Candy, Domino, Killer missing) I actually wanted a picture with all the dogs inside but I knew that was not going to happen. Some doggies jumped right out as soon as they were put inside the pool. It was hilarious. The next picture is of the one and only love of my life. I still can't believe he's a BIG boy already.

We (Amy, Vero, and I) went to Walmart last night and had an adventure. Of course the tie was spotted and was bought and worn today. He really did look like the Birthday Boy. He was just adorable. You can tell he had a lot of fun.... which leads me to the next picture:

The party also brought many hormones. So seriously a lot of that was going on throughout the day. Killer got his lipstick showing and couldn't seem to put it away. I took a picture of that but I rather not show since I wanna post other cute pictures.

The next picture is of the girls getting

thrown in the pool.

Yes,

I was pushed in too as mentioned earlier

and

I swallowed a whole bunch of water.

This one is pretty self-explanatory.

The babes, and I <3

And last but not least, I'm posting the picture that made me crack up hysterically. There's too much meaning in this one i love it a lot.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONCHI!

One Hundred Thirty

One year later:

Finally get Monchi's tag

Tomorrow is he's birthday

One Hundred Twenty-Nine

Happy Birthday

Mommy

One Hundred Twenty-Eight

Paradise

I wish I never left.

One Hundred Twenty-Seven

Bahamas (second day of the Cruise)

Too Much

Margaritas

+

Tequilas

+

Sun

=

COMPLETE BLACKOUT

Thank God we were @ the Bahamas and their motto is: