Monday, August 31, 2009

One Hundred Fifty-Seven

I told a fire breathing dragon he bet not harm me,
or be sorry
when he meets my one man army.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

One Hundred Fifty-Six

Why is it that I never eat sushi with a boy?
So I finally saw the one time summer movie I've been wanting to see.
Too bad it wasn't with the person who I first said to watch it with me.
C'est la vie
Someone decided to bring their baby over to watch the movie as well
and let me tell you that it was so annoying.
I love babies... but don't bring one to a 10pm showtime
You know your baby is going to cry.
Then they get mad because they're getting shhhhed at
of course you're going to get reprimanded.
RUDE and CHEAP people
too broke to afford a babysitter

The movie brought back so many good memories
but I know I can never have that with him anymore.
Because whatever we both have become,
we do not have the undo buttons
to go back and start over again.
Maybe it is better this way.
who knows?
I will be a Dental Hygienist
by the end of this year
that I do know
and I also know I will start seeking
on travel plans
maybe a study abroad.
Those are the goals
I know how to control
and I am sticking to those.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

One Hundred Fifty-Five

Did you know that now Publix had indicators to let you know what is organic
and what is not?
I was impressed.
I did a whole bunch of studying today
and a lot of fun stuff too
Jessica and I organized how exactly we will study for
the comprehensive exam which is in
2 weeks!
But we organized pretty good
hopefully we go as planned.

Later on,

I worked for the first time as a valet parker.
It was nice.
I enjoyed it
I was charging the guest
at first I did a couple of mess ups
but I quickly fixed it
My dad was proud
he said he will take me more often
He said I have good people attitude.
Finally a compliment.
He always has a complaint
just like he's father.
I got paid $100 for the night
I needed that
I gotta pay bills
and that stupid CLICKER
we will never use.

Friday, August 28, 2009

One Hundred Fifty-Four

"It's not about proceeding for the right thing, but also proceeding at the right time."

Dropping off Megan today at the airport, I saw this little buddy.

And later on today...

can you guess where it's aiming to?
I'm in the biggest discomfort right now as I type.
I hate boys and their stupid penises.
And again we're off to another breakup.

I was surfing channels and I stopped at 21
and Joel Osteen was preaching...
God is simply amazing.
He just knows where to reach you
and what to say.
I feel better.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

One Hundred Fifty-Three

Booty booty booty booty rocking everywhere.
haa haa
today Angela was telling a story about "booty" spray
that makes is smell like Booty
and so I mentioned how Booty is boo's dog
and when I come in and say "it smells like booty"
it can be taken 2 ways
lol whatever inside joke for those who are lost.
Today was our first "patient" day
lordy lord.
hectic yet fun
I must admit.
Morning patient AWESOME
Afternoon patient coo coo for cocoa puffs
That's all I will mention.
And that I love my friends
if it weren't for them
none of this would be so easy.
I received some news today
which I didn't know how to take
I'm still &%*$#@!
any ways...
I went to Boo's house
he cooked me my favorite dish.
mash potatoes and chicken
yum yum yum!!!!!
I've been missing out on a lot because of my brain
But I swear I don't mean it
My thoughts just get the best of me.
or worst?
I interviewed his grandma
which made me a little sad..
I wish I could interview my grandma
It's not fair sometimes...
it really isn't
People say I don't care
BUT I really do I just don't want to affiliate.
whatever... I'm not going to start..
I have some interesting stuff to write about on the essay.
Wait and see
I might post it.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

One Hundred Fifty-Two

Today would have been the first day of school
if it wasn't that Miami-Dade didn't change their policy.
Anyways, I went to the freshman orientation that left me at a stage of shock
I still cannot believe I am a senior
I remember looking at the clinic manual and reading stuff
that only applied to clinic 4 and 5
and thinking to myself,
I wish I was there already...
guess what?
I'm there already
it feels like just yesterday.
Anyways, today we had communities
and I think that this will be my favorite class
When I had to do the service learning
back in clinic 1 or 2
(can't really remember)
I enjoyed it so much.
And this is what this class is all about.
From now on, every time I hear
"The Climb"
from Miley Cyrus
I will forever think of Dental Hygiene
Dr. Kass had passed outthe lyrics to the song
and to me it was very meaningful
ok... skipping the emo part.
after class, Lellanis, Jessica, and I
were talking about prego and I walked into the sign that's above.
So I took it as a sign:
Lellanis is pregnant
and the way the sun was hitting
I think she's having a boy.
watch and see ladies and gents
I know you're reading
I really messed up tonight
took respect and shoved it out the door
(more like slammed it)
I blew it

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

One Hundred Fifty-One

One more kiss could be the best thing
Or one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve.
-3 Doors Down

Monday, August 24, 2009

One Hundred Fifty

Back to Basics
today school started.
Started eating healthy again
started working out too.
And now I'm watching Tru Blood
First episode.
I decided not to mention anything that bothers me anymore
I will just write them down
and when they get to _
I will share it
Tru Blood sucks
horrible acting
accent is not real
everyone's teeth are MESSED up
including the main character's
the vampire is not sexy
it so did not attract me to it one bit.
Jessica said to watch the next episode but it got late.

Ampy had these in her desk today and I thought they were so pretty.
I'm a big fan of sunflowers and orchids
but the colors of these just made me so attracted to them.
I wish he knew I like the cute simple things.
Is that he does know but he just doesn't do them.
Why did I fall in love again?
That's just my mean talk

Sunday, August 23, 2009

One Hundred Forty-Nine

Sundays will forever be made for Monchi and me.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

One Hundred Forty-Eight

"I got a skunk in my cup
If you smell it come and get it
shawty i don't give a %$#@"

Skig love..
haa the good old days.
They are slowly coming back.
I spoke to him today.
I mentioned someone I thought I was going to regret.
But I think it actually made him think.
Let's see what happens.
Nothing freaking happened.
He doesn't notice anything.
Maybe like a 3 hour convo with the sister
I think she's the only one that I can speak to bout him.
It's weird because she's not my sister but I know she reasons with who ever actually has it.
And she sees things that I do that he can't.
AHH why can't it be vice versa?

Friday, August 21, 2009

One Hundred Forty-Seven

My almost perfect diamond.
Too bad almost doesn't count.
"You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know"

Thursday, August 20, 2009

One Hundred Forty-Six

And this is what I remember:
Yensi- You remember when we use to watch the dog and cat movie in your apartment?
Me- No but I remember when we would always hang in my apartment.
Yensi- Yeah just Yule, you, and me
Me- Yeah I remember
Yensi- Well that's when I knew me and you were going to hang out in the future
Me- ::kiss kiss kiss kiss::
Yensi- Then Raquel Aida just shows up out of no where and I knew us three would cause damage
Me- lol

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

One Hundred Forty-Five

Re-united and it feels sooo good.
I forgot how much we use to break it down.
the crowd went crazy.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

One Hundred Forty-Four

And He gets the girl...
he's still pooped out.

Monday, August 17, 2009

One Hundred Forty-Three

Monchi lost his virginity today.
Hopefully Molly becomes a momma.

Someone also decided to apologize and walk the plank for forgiveness.
I was waiting on that. Maybe we needed time. But whatever it was that was needed, it happened. And now we're back together. lol. Let's see how this pulls through.

“A boy is a magical creature, you can lock him out of your workshop, but you can’t lock him out of your heart. You can get him out of your study, but you can’t get him out of your mind.”

Sunday, August 16, 2009

One Hundred Forty-Two

Finally, a sign that lead us to some fun in the sun.

and later on that night....
The day was just too perfect for the Incubus concert.

Never ask to get a kiss. If you feel the mood is right, go for it.
If it wasn't, and you get rejected, at least you tried.
Asking is just basically meaning your too coward and waiting on a NO.
And if you're going to ask for a kiss, at least ask for a dance when possible.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

One Hundred Forty-One

Even when the weather is bad @ the Keys,
We still party it up!

Friday, August 14, 2009

One Hundred Forty

So we were supposed to leave like at three today. And now it's 8 pm and we are still here at Jessica's house. Jessica is not in the brightest of all moods. she got her monthly friend.. (so did I on the 12th). And let me tell you that it's very very heavy. Well I think we are actually leaving right now before JESSICA BITES MY HEAD OFF! Her house right now is a HOT ZONE! yikes!!!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

One Hundred Thirty-Nine


Wednesday, August 12, 2009

One Hundred Thirty-Eight

Eventually, one will turn into my prince.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

One Hundred Thirty-Seven

I love how music inspires me to do so much
it's the door to any emotion
today could have been an extremely bad day because of the news i received
(read below if interested)
But yes 3 special tracks changed my day to a different point of view.
I'm not say complete 180 but it made me pass the bad time
not only that but my friends as well.... lol
I got creative and started doing a video of Monchi's birthday
that might get posted here. who knows
Well the creativity i have to thank
the Avett brothers and Noah and the Whales
Well it's really thanks to Lauren who posted her video on her blog
and I saw it and of course my mind started lol.
I hope she reads this right now
because I also saw that she wrote she doesn't like mentioning her ideas
I think it's awesome to be very open about your ideas
if she wouldn't have posted her video
I wouldn't have gotten creative and my day would have been HORRIBLE!
Yeah it sucks that sometimes your ideas lead to someone's fame and fortune
but I am a great believer in Karma, whether good or bad
It does exist.

Since I started doing my video I've been thinking about a great soundtrack to put
since I've been so lyrical today
And i ran through Jack Johnson's
Upside down
and I found a Winner.
This song has made me smile.
I think I'm finally back.

I broke my piggy bank today
All for some tasty HazelNut Ice Coffees from Mickey D's
It was just right! But it never fails Jessica always has some more after I finish.

Ever woken up to bad news?
Why is it that women always suffer?
Since Adam and Eve we have always had the worst end compare to men. For Adam, he had to sweat for his food. Dont' women have to do that too?
As a matter of fact everyone has to do that labor in order to live.
Now for Eve, she could have bore children without pain, but because she did wrong, now she and the rest of women have to bore children through pain. Come on! Only women can become pregnant. Why the heck can this pain be shared among women and men?
It took us forever to gain rights in this lovely place we call Land of the Free. Even today a BLACK man became President before a woman. So where does it leave us women? We are at the bottom of the food chain compare to everyone else. In other cultures, women are slaves to their husbands while their husbands have other wives. Why do we let this happen to us?
While I have a theory for that question, I don't wish to write about that today.
Rather the pain and suffering us women go through. Which can never ever be felt by another gender.
We are hit daily with double standards. Men can have sex with whomever and be called PIMPS, while women try to have that much fun and then they're called SLUTS.
Even women bashes their own gender when we get higher rankings at life. (Hence the reason why we don't upscale in this world, because we are so busy trying to do our selves, then actually helping women kind.)
Now that I think about it, women are born with a distinct calling. We want to be independent. We want to be so competitive at what we do, that we forget to help other women trying to be like us. We are helpers in people calling us what they do.
In today's music culture, men want these independent woman. Miss Independent, one that can cook, clean, pay her own bills, etc. Why isn't there a song were the lyrics are dedicated to men? We are getting programed to live this kinda life. Because that's what men want us to do to make it so much easier for them. I don't know if I am making so much sense in writing but it's making enough sense inside my head. Why do we once again have to have a standard of living in order to impress the media. That's why I love TLC, they actually went Public when they stated they want NO SCRUBS! Then later on Destiny's Child comes up with Can You Pay My Bills? Going to the right direction but not quite we still have these men top of the charts.
I'm feeling very feminist right now because seriously, we don't get treated right. I've always heard that God made men first because he needed a rough draft... but men have it very easy. During my pathology class, almost always the risk factor to every disease is WOMEN. (Quick confession, in my tests, I always circled the 'women' answer.) It seems like our gender has to do some tune finning because we always have the worst diseases and pain.
And who said men are stronger than women? Who said men can tolerate more pain than women? I've seen men at the dentist office FLIP out when they have to get numb. I've seen tears in their eyes. Just yesterday I was assisting for an 11 year old female getting fillings on 2 teeth. The doctor told her she needs to get numb because the decay might have gotten in the nerve, and she looked at me in the eyes and I saw her hand come up. She took a hold of it a tighten it real hard. No tears just very hard grip. Unfortunately for me, she grabbed the hand that has the ring, and my hand was pulsating. But I couldn't let go. She was alone and she was just so brave. And that's just one example. I have a whole bunch.
Like always, my point gets lost somewhere in this essay. All I'm saying is, when the hell is it that women will finally get a chance to break free? We need to work together. God needs to find remedies for all of these disease that women are risk factors for and flip them to men. I think men need to suffer a little in order for them to see how much we go through. They need to give labor. They need to get domestically abused. They need to get rejected for not being big breast and blonde. They need to feel the pain.

Monday, August 10, 2009

One Hundred Thirty-Six

"Don't make the mistake of treating your dogs like humans,
or they'll treat you like dogs."
-Martha Scott

So Monday..
2 more weeks of vacation and then back to school
I feel like the break was just 2 seconds!
How am I suppose to miss it if we have to come right back?
I worked today... the first and only day of the week because the doctor
is going on vacation.. however she's leaving on Friday
so I'm guessing something went wrong with her planning.
Any who it was extremely busy. I mean I barely had a chance to eat lunch.
But whatever I like it like that. Time flies supper duper fast and before I know it
it's time to go already.
I worked out also.
which I got a beautiful souvenir from it.
Since I didn't stop running until I completed the 3 laps
I didn't notice my thunder thighs were rubbing up against each other.
So both my thighs have nasty burns
And it hurts.
That's what I get for having huge thighs.
So I made watermelon popsicles
they were tasty however
Monchi just kept smelling it
and not falling for it.
He only likes Fatty Foods.
ohh and I missed half of teen choice awards.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

One Hundred Thirty-Five

What has happened to me?
I started school so eager to help people's mouth and see outcomes. And now I just want to get the job done and next. I was reading my essay application for Jamaica and I noticed I have changed so much. I was so eager to try and go and help and see and conquer. Do I still want those same things? I still talk about it when asked. But is it still my passion? I don't know if break-ups are suppose to take down every other feeling I have inside of me. But this is exactly how it feels. This shit sucks. I was voted fundraiser of my class and I don't think I have done something out of the ordinary. This is exactly why for the break and I am going to do the things I once had fun doing. The things that excited me, the things that made me join this program. I don't want to go back to school and dread it. I have a very difficult semester coming up and I need to find the good before I focus on the bad. Maybe it's also because school was so overwhelming and the break still hasn't hit me yet. But whatever it is.. it's not going to last long because I am going to find what I lost. This person that has taken control of me will not have that power anymore. I am almost finished with The Host, and when I'm done I will start reading the Pathology book and Periodontology, and then I have to find the book from Erica
Yong, Fear of Flying. I need to set up goals in order to attain them. I can't just walk without crawling. It's like starting all over again, but when I get to the person I once was, I just have to continue building her from where I left off. I just have to find her again.
So tonight we celebrated Jenny's 22 birthday over at Monty's. It was nice because the moon was Full. That's what that yellow dot in the back of me is in the picture. I got a little tipsy. I drank something called pain killer. It has 3 varieties #1,2,3. 1=1 shot of rum; 2=2 shots of rum and so forth. I had #2 so that it won't be beginners or expert. lol. Even though the pain I have cannot be taken away with this. Of that I was sure. I mean if everyone can cure their heart aches with a drink called painkiller the world would be a little... to easy. Don't you think? Any who I had a good time and for the most part, the pain was bearable.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

One Hundred Thirty-Four

I found a new way to turn your frown upside down..
"They thought I wanted a stripper with a huge CLOCK"
omg you have no idea how hard I cracked up with this little birthday card.
I always had a thing for cards, but I didn't know that if I read them
while I wasn't feeling ok, it would bring my mood up.
And to be perfectly honest, I didn't get this card right away.
Laugh all you want and call me slow, but I wasn't in the right level.
But yeah, so today I went to Target with Jessica and Janette.
We were looking for bridal shower invitations for her mother.
that's how I happen to run by this.
Any who Janette spoke words of wisdom today that
helped me see through these blinded eyes of mine.
With the first heart break of mine
I suffer tremendously and almost went crazy
but I got over it and became this Independent woman
I began to fall in love with.
This woman brought herself so many goals to accomplish,
that at the time is slowly working up to them
one goal at a time
building a higher step than the last one built
slowly getting to her top dreams
and during this construction
she encounter someone in the past
who knew the person she was before she fell in love with herself
This person also knew the new woman inside of her.
However he couldn't be able to work with her.
Almost as if they are not compatible anymore
She started seeing this old person that once lived inside her.
And she didn't want this person back in
It was a difficult decision making because
she also fell in love with the new boy
but she's so much more in love with Independent self,
she wants someone who loves that person she became.
Not bring out the old one. And since I've realized this
I am not going to put myself in a situation where the old me can get revealed
that person is already a stranger to me.
I want to keep building this new person I am loving.
And sooner or later, find the half that loves this new me.
And I know it can happen because it happened before
and now I am more knowledgeable.
No mistakes, Just lessons learned.
-Thanks Janette

Friday, August 7, 2009

One Hundred Thirty-Three

Kitty looks like Thumper.

Never ever let me find out something you're doing by someone else.
depending on the severity it can cause
-automatic strike out
-out for the season

Thursday, August 6, 2009

One Hundred Thirty-Two

I don't know why I always feel like i have to explain myself. I see people always doing what they do just because and no questions as to why or what triggered them to do it. Yet i'm always freaking feel the need to explain myself. I think that can be a good and bad quality. Good in the medical field when your explaining to your patient what procedure your doing. I've noticed it causes the patient to be more at ease. But my personal life.... why do i get so involved with people? Why must i welcome them into my thoughts and feelings if they don't do the same?

And you thought I wasn't going to post a pic?
Ha H aHa Ha! today was Jaaziel's birthday. I went to the movies with Jessica to watch Funny People.. which really isn't that funny. I cried. Reminded me of someone I really didn't want to get reminded of. And to tell you the truth it made me want to know what he's up to. GOSH
Any who today Incubus was in my head the whole entire day.. and they helped me get a whole other definition to the song Dig. I guess I had to wait till this feeling happened to me in real life in order for it to understand it. "If I turn into another, Dig me up from under what is covering, the better part of me, Sing this song, remind me that we always have each other, when everything else is gone.
Well lately the boy toy hasn't been acting like himself. I swear he changed on me. He doesn't believe these changes are visible, but only I can feel them happening. A lot of things he used to do he now doesn't do. And like seriously i miss them. Bro this guys use to be the one who made my tummy ache of all the butterflies he would fill inside me. And now he's just the guy who gets me mad and who's jokes I don't understand. He himself has had a song stuck with him and one of the versus is.. "forever my fiance." So am I ever going to get any more serious with him? Is this it? For ever will I be treated this way by him? Because it kinda sucks and I can't get used to this. Something has to happen.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

One Hundred Thirty-One

There's just too many pictures for this particular day. Today is Monchi's Birthday. I decided to throw him a pool party and invite his buddies. I got 3 kitty pools, water balloons, food, treats, toys, etc. We had too much fun. Everyone ended up inside the pools because the boys were just throwing everyone. Of course I have to swallow that nasty water. I start coughing and almost gaged. YUCK! I just have to post more pictures because I cannot just pin point the best one. So the first one was of all the people that were there at the time. (Pegasus, Blacky, Candy, Domino, Killer missing) I actually wanted a picture with all the dogs inside but I knew that was not going to happen. Some doggies jumped right out as soon as they were put inside the pool. It was hilarious. The next picture is of the one and only love of my life. I still can't believe he's a BIG boy already.
We (Amy, Vero, and I) went to Walmart last night and had an adventure. Of course the tie was spotted and was bought and worn today. He really did look like the Birthday Boy. He was just adorable. You can tell he had a lot of fun.... which leads me to the next picture:
The party also brought many hormones. So seriously a lot of that was going on throughout the day. Killer got his lipstick showing and couldn't seem to put it away. I took a picture of that but I rather not show since I wanna post other cute pictures.

The next picture is of the girls getting
thrown in the pool.
I was pushed in too as mentioned earlier
I swallowed a whole bunch of water.

This one is pretty self-explanatory.
The babes, and I <3

And last but not least, I'm posting the picture that made me crack up hysterically. There's too much meaning in this one i love it a lot.


Tuesday, August 4, 2009

One Hundred Thirty

One year later:
Finally get Monchi's tag
Tomorrow is he's birthday

Monday, August 3, 2009

One Hundred Twenty-Nine

Happy Birthday

Sunday, August 2, 2009

One Hundred Twenty-Eight

I wish I never left.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

One Hundred Twenty-Seven

Bahamas (second day of the Cruise)

Too Much




Thank God we were @ the Bahamas and their motto is: